stripethree

I keep having the recurring thought to ditch my efforts at getting a masters degree. The first two classes I finished, I didn’t feel like I got a lot out of because most of the material I already knew through undergrad classes, my internship and my job. My current class is a similar deal, but I’m getting a little more out of it that the previous two. Not getting much out of it is not a motivator to continue with this at all. After the current class, I’d have seven more to go, and I’d would probably up to taking two a semester just to get it over with quicker. I barely go to this class now, and I just find it hard to be motivated to put down the effort; it just doesn’t seem like this is worth my time. It will benefit me salary-wise at my job when I finish, but not an amount that is life changing and not immediately (first annual assessment after completion I’d see it take effect). I know a number of people at work that have gone plenty far on just their bachelor’s degree and various certifications. I could shift my efforts to getting certifications that would probably benefit me more knowledge-wise and would also help salary-wise in a similar respect. The other thing, and this may sound dumb, but the time spent is taking away from other things… nothing that important, mostly car stuff, trips, etc. but I just don’t feel like I’m doing what I want to do with all my time outside of work. Maybe I’m just burned out because I took no break after undergrad. Maybe I should have skipped a class during the summer months with car shows and everything else going on. The money I have to throw towards grad school is ridiculous as well, if my company weren’t picking up some of the tab I’d never do it. And that’s part of the reason I think maybe I should stick it out… I might not have this opportunity again, and most of the people I know that did grad school in their late 20′s or after say they wished they’d done it sooner. I also don’t want to feel like I’m ‘quitting’ at it, if that makes sense. I started it, I’ve put time in, and I feel like I should finish, but in the meantime I’m missing out on other shit now because of it. Maybe I’m just nuts.

I should probably wait to think about this again after the week is out and I get through the current project in my class. This week has just brought on a pile of frustrating and stressful situations in many respects and I need to get through it before I go off and make a snap decision. I feel like I am overwhelmed in the things that I have committed my time to, and while my priorities might not be 100ght, more school is the one thing that I see that I could give up, be even happier than I already am, have more time to do the things I really enjoy, all those things, but with the catch that it might be an opportunity I can’t get back. I can take a step back from other things, specifically car stuff but I already feel like I waiting so freakin’ long to get involved in that stuff and I love it, I don’t want to give it up. It might sounds stupid, but it means a lot more to me that some piece of paper saying I suffered through more class.